- Not doing Study Abroad during college - I always wanted to, but I just never found a way to make it happen. Looking back, I see all sorts of ways I could have done this if I had just pushed hard enough or sacrificed a semester of school to work and save money.
- Majoring in Finance as an undergrad - Not that it was a bad major, but I think Communications (a major which I never even considered) would have been much more up my alley.
- Not practicing the piano more while growing up - I'm not sure why I thought it was so boring, because every time I sit down to play a song now I find myself thinking "wow, I wish I had more time to practice because I really like playing the piano."
- Deciding against buying a piece of art from one of the artists on the streets of Paris - it was so cheap and so cool and so parisian (well, maybe not so much, but it sure seems like it to us).
- Losing touch with good (even best) friends - it just happens sometimes I guess with the different directions we all take in life. But it shouldn't and I hate that it has. And it has been so wonderful to reconnect with some of them through Facebook and blogs, but I still kick myself for all the missed opportunities of being there for each other over the years.
- Every time I looked in a mirror and thought "I am too fat" or "I wish I was prettier" - Was I an idiot? Yes I was. Because other than a few really awkward years I was really cute growing up. And in college. And heck, I'm a freakin' babe now. So I don't know what I was worrying about. It took some work, but I don't ever think this about myself anymore. It is so not worth it.
- Losing my retainer - I am facing the humiliating possibility of getting braces again. It makes me want to cry.
- Hurting Jessica's feelings the night before I entered the Missionary Training Center - I still don't remember what I did, and she may not even remember this, but she had written me a letter and brought it in to give to me in the basement at our aunt's house where we were staying. I said or did something mean and hurt her feelings. She tore up the letter into tiny pieces in front of me and threw them away. I took the pieces out of the trash and with me to the MTC, but couldn't ever figure out what they had said. I still wish I knew and get a little choked up over this incident. Losing my retainer makes me want to cry, but losing her love at that moment makes me cry. And I kick myself every time I hurt the feelings of someone I love now and look back at this moment. It seems so small, but it is probably one of my biggest regrets.
- Working for free for a law firm my 1L year of law school - A lot of first year law students stress out about finding a job that pays, but they are hard to come by. I opted to work for free for a really amazing firm in Germany and had one of the best summers of my life.
- Skipping 8th grade - Made the decision in less than a minute when the Junior High Vice-Principal, Mr. Whale, told me that I had that option or I could be bused more than an hour each way every day to attend the gifted school. If I hadn't skipped, I would have graduated in '99 - same year as Paul.
- BYU - I harbored this secret desire as a senior in high school to go to Stanford (I am still a little giddy of the fact that I am now working for a firm that is literally less than a mile from the Stanford campus, although I am not in awe of it like I used to be back then), and I really wanted to go to UNC for law school. But BYU was so good for me and so good to me. I had great experiences, amazing professors, good friends, and met the love of my life.
- Getting married at age 23 - I thought it was too young and that I wasn't ready for marriage. But Paul was right about us and so right for me and I'm glad we got married when we did. Even though he was only 22 and I really wanted to wait until at least after his birthday in June so we would both be 23.
- Missing almost three weeks of school my last semester of law school - I still got good grades, I still graduated and I still passed the bar. It made it possible for me to spent a week in Costa Rica and Panama relaxing, a week in Florida competing in Moot Court, and a week in Boston attending a law conference and seeing New England.
- Buying Paul's Canon - Having a really nice camera rocks. We have had more fun with that thing than any other toy we have ever owned.
- Any time I ever spent neglecting homework to spend it with friends - I always did fine in school and even if my grades had slipped a tiny bit it still would have been worth it. Because those moments don't ever come back but the memories I made and the relationships I built have stayed with me.